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these past few weeks have been very very taxing for mi..out of the 3 comdr, onli mi is fighting fit, with the other 2 down with foot rot cum food infection. both were so serious that they got mc for 1 week. imagine all the works i had to do. i dun mind doing all the works..in a way it still a short term one..wat make mi angry most was i still get fucked for helping...Zzzzz...got this event when got outfield...since my plt was not involve, we were asked to be the enemy with mi as the so-call incharge. from this,i assume that i won't be involve in the fighting etc...so i did not bring my weapon and helmet out.

frm the very start we leave camp it was a total disaster.. firstly, i deploy the guy at the wrong place...so kana fucked by my oc..then nv bring compass...got 3 extras. . then while waiting, the oc fuck mi again for not bringing weapon and helment...then he wanted mi to do so many thing...wat set up codewords, put up a fierce fight etc etc..fine...i did all that for him. after the fight, i kana alot of scolding again.. this time from one of the man and a 3rd sgt...saying i shld have died etc etc.. wa lau eh..how the fuck i noe...and how the fuck i delcare myself die? my mood juz drop from heaven to hell..worse still..one of my guy stupiditly got cut by a wire..

haiz...that day juz got fucked and fucked and fucked. and inside mi, i was feeling so down...the anger and sadness inside mi was building up since morning till night. i was so close to erupting le lor...after going back to camp i still have to wear a mask in front of others ppl.



this month i met with so many problems and trouble..it been very pressurising for mi.. i dun even feel so pressurising and stressed out when i in sch...when then i can be released from all this suffering? haiz...how i wish i ording NOW!!!!!!